Hi! My name is Michelle. I am a mother of 2 (oldest is a boy and youngest is a girl). I am married to my wonderful husband ( 9 1/2 years). I have battled obesity my entire life. My highest weight was right before I had my daughter in 2010 and that was 309. After I had her I went down to 284. Over the past almost 3 years I have been up and down on the scale. I have even gotten down to 198 but I've now gained back the weight (well to 256).
I am a binge eater and a volume eater. I am finally at my wits end. I'm tired of feeling like a failure when it comes to this weight loss thing. I have the worst time keeping the weight off! Looking back at old pictures (from my childhood) I can see this same pattern of behavior when it comes to food. I have sleep apnea (never formally diagnosed but definitely have it) and high blood pressure. My BMI is currently over 40 so my insurance will cover the surgery even without those 2 things.
I have been researching weight loss surgery seriously for the past 6 months. I know this is not a miracle cure and need to get down to the real issues (what is causing me to turn to food). For the past 4 months I have been attending a weight loss support group that is held by a local therapist. For the past 2 months I have been seeing that same therapist on a weekly basis. She (and the group) is helping me come to grips with my past so that my future is more positive. I believe the weight loss surgery will help me lose the weight and the therapy sessions (and support group sessions) will help me maintain/keep off the weight!
I have hope for the future now. I look forward to so many things. For example: not being winded when going upstairs, sleeping better, feeling better in my skin, looking better, fitting into small clothes, running a half marathon faster than the others that I have run, not having high blood pressure, etc... These are just a few.
Thank you for joining me in my journey!
Last Updated 1/1/2013