tizv123

I'd tell your coworker a few things about telling folks your business....too

Well, after I blogged this this morning I went and got the scale and made a mistake that cost me my moral for the rest of the day....It still says 190...I am in size 12's...most 14s are too big. I really wanted to be in the 175 range at this time...my goal for January was 190...February was 185 but was really hoping for 180 and 175 by March...I am in a depression right now....I hate I got on the scale...I can fit alot of clothes that I haven't worn for years....Almost EVERYTHING in my closet is waay to big....Why am I so fixated on that damn scale...Why....It just disrupts my whole frame of mind....I just want to cry....and yea people keep asking how much I've lost...well, I've been in the 190 range for over 3 weeks...and before of course just 191...Since 2 Jan, I've lost maybe 12lbs...I only started at 217. I am 5'4 and 1/2 I see people that started at my weight that are in the low 170's....It makes me feel like I am failing...I paid 15500 cash and 11 weeks later...27 pounds....I know its good BUT, I expected so much more....uggghhh...I am so sad.....This is the feeling that makes me want to eat.....

Well, after I blogged this this morning I went and got the scale and made a mistake that cost me my moral for the rest of the day....It still says 190...I am in size 12's...most 14s are too big. I really wanted to be in the 175 range at this time...my goal for January was 190...February was 185 but was really hoping for 180 and 175 by March...I am in a depression right now....I hate I got on the scale...I can fit alot of clothes that I haven't worn for years....Almost EVERYTHING in my closet is waay to big....Why am I so fixated on that damn scale...Why....It just disrupts my whole frame of mind....I just want to cry....and yea people keep asking how much I've lost...well, I've been in the 190 range for over 3 weeks...and before of course just 191...Since 2 Jan, I've lost maybe 12lbs...I only started at 217. I am 5'4 and 1/2 I see people that started at my weight that are in the low 170's....It makes me feel like I am failing...I paid 15500 cash and 11 weeks later...27 pounds....I know its good BUT, I expected so much more....uggghhh...I am so sad.....This is the feeling that makes me want to eat.....

I know exactly what you mean!! My husband moved/hid my scale, of course I found but have been freaking fixated on that damn scale too!! It is so stupid of me but I do. First thing every one asks is, "how much have you lost?" and I want an answer for them but gotta let it go. Good for you, being able to let that go!! I really wish I had been a little more of a closed book about the whole surgery thing. Told most people that I know and let me tell you, I work at a hospital, one of the freaking anesthesiologists thinks it's his place to tell my damn patients that I am on my way to skinny, explaining to them that I have had surgery and am now losing weight!! That really ticks me off!! Anyway, I am down and out today and came here for positive... Gotta get back positive!

Happy weight loss!!

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