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I lost some but not much at all and by 8months it stopped. I think it's because I am a slow looser. I also took the Biotin for the first 8 months. I don't take it anymore. I did have a lot of hair to begin with but just eat a balanced diet and I think it helps.

Thanks guys I've just been worried that I'm going to fall into bad habits. It comes from mostly family that haven't been very supportive (maybe they are waiting for me to gain) they compare me to other WLS patients "they know". I tell them I'm 1 1/12yrs out and I can eat more than I did in he beginning. Then I second guess myself am I eating to much is this why I haven't gotten to goal. It's the crazy in my head that I close up and don't want anyone to see me.

I've always been one. I feel I am worse now. I feel more judged than ever. Does anyone feel this way. I'm sliding back into eating when no one is around. I constantly get WOW you can eat more now and can you eat that and I feel like everyone is looking at what I am eating. I wish no one new about the surgery I'm struggling I still haven't gotten to goal but I still don't eat much but I'm starting to hide when I eat and I know it's bad but I don't want to eat in public or around my family and friends. Is it me or do others feel this way?

I think because I'm a slooow looser it wasn't bad at all. I did loose some, not much until my 8th month now it looks just the same. I also colored my hair and cut it the same as before surgery. I do have a very thick head of hair.

Thanks guys. I posted for myself to see and remember but as always I love this site. MisFit you are so right, we are so fragile when it comes to this. I'm 15months out and still struggling everyday with my food demons. There is a fight in my head all the time yelling at me Drink Water eat Protein work out. Then I ask WHY all the time WHY can't I just live like everyone else and have a little that's why I got THIS surgery to just eat what I want but smaller portions. That's what I told myself anyway. Maybe I wasn't prepared well enough because I've learned the hard way that that's not the way. Once I start eating "normal" again I gain. Thanks again everyone. Starting fresh today Protein Water Gym that's my life. One day isn't going to stop me. I wish I didn't have to work or I would be at the gym now burning off those calories. Have a great day guy keep up the fight.

I ate and ate and ate all day. I'm sick. I'm going through it with my husband he is testing me over and over again. It was a rough night and I didn't sleep at all. They had a Xmas brunch thing at work and I don't know what came over me but I just got a plate like I never had surgery at all. Never even thought about any of it until I am sitting here at my desk looking at this empty plate. Also ate dessert. I have been working so hard working out like a beast and I'm pissed. I kept on eating this plate all day little by little. Meatballs, Pasta, Eggplant Parm, chicken Ziti and Broccoli and some Italian dessert. Granted before I could've eaten that in one sitting and gone for seconds. I'm going to be back on track tomorrow but I am so mad at myself I can't even go to the gym because It's my late night at work. How come food can still make me feel good and then so bad after. I hope I remember this feeling and please God don't let it show up on the scale. Confessing this here so not to do it again.......

I see this all the time. I talked to my husband about what the difference is now. I even get mad about it. I feel they want me to act differently too. I'm still the same person just smaller. My boss even called me in to say it's time for a new wardrobe. Are you kidding me. This is my style as long as I follow the dress code why does it matter. We always knew that fat people are treated differently now we know first hand. Let's not forget were we came from.

Oh also if anyone is wondering the hair grows back fine. I did loose it in clumps but it stopped around 7months and it looks that same as it did before. It actually feels better because is newer growth.

Thank you both it's been so hard. I don't have many before pics I avoided the camera completely. If someone took a pic of me I asked them to please delete it. I couldn't stand looking at myself. As you can see my reaction in the pic. I keep seeing the same picture that I have and it make me sick but at least it's something to compare to. I really wish I could go back just to take some more pictures. I still don't like to take them but I try harder now because I see how important it is. I also love to see everyone else's pics from before and after it's so much fun to see the changes.

I posted a couple of weeks ago how bad I felt. Well I knew I wasn't eating enough and I just could get my head around it. I just thought if I keep my calories down and work out that it would eventually come off. Look at the people starving in other countries. I really was afraid to up my calories. I work out so hard I tried to burn more calories than I consumed everyday except Monday was my day off from the gym. It doesn't work. Stalled for almost 4 months with the same 3-5lbs. I felt like that was it I failed that was all the weight I was going to loose and never see onederland. Well this morning I did. 197 I dropped 7lb in a week 1yr and 2mos out. WOW I can't believe it. I ate more I tried the every 2 hours method just to boost my metabolism and it worked. I suffered for 4months starving myself and finally I realize (with my Dr. help) that I was doing it all wrong. Well I love this board I've read this before but I was so afraid to eat more but your body needs something to burn when you work out. Also my Dr. recommended a couple of turkey and cheese roll ups 1hr before my work out and 1/2 hour after. He is not a big fan of Protein shakes. He said if you have to but try not to. Eat your protein not drink it that his advice not mine. The first pic is from right before and the other is from today. THANKS GUYS....................................

Has anyone had a hard time getting their heart rate up when exercising. Before surgery I always checked it when I worked out. Always maxing out around 160 when I walked on the treadmill at 4.0. Now I run intervals at 6.0 then walk at 4.5 and can't get it past 137 this is for an hour. I even did sprints at 7.0 and nothing. My question is since I've been stalled out so much and don't get in that many calories have I slowed my metabolism down. I finally made an appt. to see my surgeon and NUT. I didn't go it to my 1 year follow up because I felt like a failure. I just wanted to hear from you guys.

I am the same the way still after over a year out. What helped me before is that I started walking at the park. It was out in the open and I didn't feel that everyone was looking at me because they were in front of me or behind me. Once I built up the endurance to walk faster and it got colder outside I joined a gym and went after 8:00pm when it wasn't as crowded. Now I go during peak time but I still get on the treadmill in the corner and look for a pillar that can hide me when I do my weights and sit-ups. It helps for me, my insecurities are still there I just love to work out and try not to the let it get in my head too much. Push yourself. Sometimes if I get to stressed that people are looking at me I do the cardio at the gym and sit-ups and weights at home. Take on as much as you can and you will start to feel better about it. Good luck

great job. Can I have some of that dough?

He is scared. I went alone to the hospital I was fine. I had the same problem. I didn't even want him to visit me because I didn't want to hear anything. I even had my mom pick me up from the hospital . But he did come and see me everyday and he was there when I was discharged with my mom. It's tough for them too. He wasn't very supportive and my kids were scared. I think he was afraid too. Just do it for yourself you have to make the change for you. I'm learning this now. Focus on you, it's hard but try. I hope it all works out and do it do it do it.

This has been so hard I don't post much because I feel like a failure. I need some help and don't want anyone to know. I have struggled with this weight loss and maybe I wasn't ready for the surgery. I can't keep my calorie intake up I never want to eat and my water is sometimes not so good, I'm stressed all the time. Now I realize it's been my marriage. I have been trying to keep it together for so many years I will admit I did take a lot of crap just because I didn't think I could do any better and having children I kept it all in. Now I haven't lost as much as I should and I beat myself up everyday I work out like a crazy person just to get it out of my head. I thought maybe if I lost all the weight it would be better now instead of doing things that he did before (I think) he is preparing for a life for himself because he is afraid of all the things he has done to me and it will catch up and I will leave him. I don't know if this makes sense to anyone I have a hard time explaining it. I haven't done anything to give him that idea I don't go out I haven't even bought many new clothes just enough to get me by while I go down in size. I haven't lost a pound in 4 months. I am 1yr and 1month out and I compare myself to everyone else on the board (I know I shouldn't) but I do. I'm so far away from my goal I feel worse now than I did before I had the surgery. At least then I could just hide away and no one expected anything from me. Now everyone who I told (which isn't a lot) is expecting me to loose and look a certain way. I'm feeling so stressed out I wasn't ready and I am admitting it now. It's so much pressure.