This whole weight thing is exhausting. I finally made the decision and started my process on November 12th. I had my 2nd weigh in today and have lost enough to schedule...I am having this surgery done on january 30th..I can't believe it...its time to get the monkey off the back once and for all. 40 years is long enough to carry this weight obsession, I'll be 50 in 2013 and my life will be just beginning.its terrifying.....Happy New year, this year really is a new year!!