DeniseG

Penni, my husband has the same problem He grew up real poor, and always worried when his next meal would come. He always ate fast, and rushed to get seconds as if there weren't going to be any. (Rarely was there enough for seconds).
I have the problem of not being able to leave a plate with something on it. Of course that comes from scoldings as a child.
The second problem I have, is always thinking I can have a dessert if I eat my food.
My husband says I eat like a kid. Never learning how to eat grown up foods (vegetables, fruits etc.) I eat/ate foods high in sugar and preservatives. I never realized that until recently.
Usually I eat when I am extremely stressed. Even when I am not hungry

Whippledaddy,
I can so relate to your story. I didn't suffer abuse, but, the part where you talk about eating at night, secret eating has always been a huge problem for me, and the night time. I too always enjoyed a party by myself. I guess the only person I was hiding or fooling was me. How can you hide the fact you are over eating when you gain 100 pounds in 5 years. Delarla, I so identify with you in many posts. I am definitely a closet snacker though. It's an addiction. Sometimes I just miss that numbness you feel after eating in excess. I rarely ever drank, but, I noticed when I was tighter I use to drink White Russians just about every night, it gave me that numbness I felt that I missed. (1 or 2 drinks) When I realized that, it started to worry me. I definitely didn't want to replace one addiction for another. Plus, I was gaining weight. I haven't had one in about 3 months. I don't miss them though, so, I guess that is a good sign.
When I try to think of one time when I didn't worry about my weight........I can't even think of a time. It is hard to believe I have spent 35 years dwelling on it.

Penni, my husband has the same problem He grew up real poor, and always worried when his next meal would come. He always ate fast, and rushed to get seconds as if there weren't going to be any. (Rarely was there enough for seconds).
I have the problem of not being able to leave a plate with something on it. Of course that comes from scoldings as a child.
The second problem I have, is always thinking I can have a dessert if I eat my food.
My husband says I eat like a kid. Never learning how to eat grown up foods (vegetables, fruits etc.) I eat/ate foods high in sugar and preservatives. I never realized that until recently.
Usually I eat when I am extremely stressed. Even when I am not hungry