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Way to go! Keep up the great work! Thanks for sharing!

Where do you get Torani in grocery stores?

A few Tablespoons should have you doing a full check. Make sure you operate under the "fork down" system. Put your fork down after every bite. This will help the food settle and allow you time to check in with yourself. Also, don't eat where you are distracted - like in front of the tv. Make sure you are eating where you are focused on eating. If that makes sense. I find my stomach tells me pretty loud when it is full. I burp.

I have been so good about following everything to a T as far as diet but on Friday I was having a camp fire with friends and one glass of wine couldn't hurt right? Well it went down so well I had another and another and then after filling up the 4th glass, one sip and I was so drunk and so sick I thought I was going to die. My poor husband wanted to take me to the hospital. With no food to throw up I was dry heaving for a good hour. Scared him terribly and would have scared me at the time had I not been so out of it. Once I came to I was horified at what I had done and have spent the last 2 days gently trying to rebuild myself and praying I haven't done any serious damage. My stomach is still upset and I'm still shaky. Working to make sure I go way over on my Fluid intake. Stupid, stupid, stupid. DON'T DO IT! Not sure I will ever drink again. Ever. So now I've lost comfort of food (by my own choice and I'm dealing with that) and comfort of "letting my hair down" every now and then. I really need to find another way to let loose. Man, I sound pathetic.

Started knitting. Learned it on youtube. Not as effective as beer and cigarettes but does take the edge off.

No change in meds but will check blood pressure.

Think Im getting enough Water but dizzy when I stand up. What is up with that?

Thank God I'm not alone. Someone suggested knitting but I don't know how. Considering it tho.

I am having a hard time. Missing my friend food. Even with the pre diet i could cheat every now and then. Not any more. Feel like i lost my security blanket. So much more mentally unstable than i expected. Dammit.

Well, at least you didn't make me feel stupid.

Felt really yucky last night. My stomach ached and today super tired, a little dizzy and feel like I'm starving physically but not hungry. Very strange sensation. Just can't eat. Headache and really, really irritable. Just want to chow down to feel better but can't. Unsure what to do. Been drinking and then try waiting 30 mnts to eat and get distracted then drink more so have to wait another 30 mnts then repeat all day. Ahhhhh... frustrated today. 30 lbs down and not one person has said anything. Feel over all discouraged today. Hmph.

I had two drains. One out before i came home and the other taken out on my 10 day follow up. He does it with every patient.

That makes sense to me. If it goes right through it would sort of be unable to be absorbed by the body right?

That makes sense to me. If it go

This term was not used in my classes.

Get tuna in the pouch not the can. It's easier to make mushy and better serving size.

What is Moscato?

1. I feel like I look much better than my pictures show. I feel sexy and confident until I see myself in a mirror. Head issues anyone?

2. I drink caffeine free diet coke fairly often' date=' at least one a day, but I always meet my Water goal, too.

3. I am having a tough time with male attention. I get hit on all the time now (see #1), but I don't understand it. I'm worried that I'm so screwed up in the head I'll never be able to deal with it well.

4. I got hit on by a woman yesterday, a woman that is HOT! See #3 and triple that confusion.

5. I haven't filed for divorce even though I've been separated for sixteen months because of 3 and 4, although I have no desire to see him.

6. I tried to lick my toe. I can't do it! LOL

7. I'm terrified that I'll never hit my goal weight, even though I feel good where I'm at.

8. I want to hit my goal weight and have plastics so that I can see "how much ass I can pull", to quote someone much earlier in this thread! LOL

9. Some days, I just want to eat junk and vegetate.

10. I go to the gym sometimes just to work off emotions that feel overwhelming. My workout partner calls says that it's me "grudge f*#@ing" the gym. I'm not sure whether to laugh about that or be worried about my mental health.

11. I'm pissed off at the people who were so supportive before my surgery that have now turned on me. My sister in law and one of my good friends have both turned into green eyed monsters.

12. Sometimes I wonder if those two women are right and I really am nasty and mean since surgery.

13. This thread made me cry.[/quote']

I love this post more than any I've read in the past month. You are fantastic. The honesty is breathtaking and made me feel normal. Many of the exact same things happening to me. Love and light to you. Have you tried yoga? Seriously. Helped me a lot and far from hippy.

Past few hours have been brutal. Afraid to leave the house.

Wondering about milk. Yes. In all if my smoothies.< /p>

Been having diarrhea for days but yesterday and today are really bad. Had one cocktail last night and been really bad for last 24 hours. Been 6 times today. Can't be much left and I'm getting worried. Is it alcohol? Is this dumping?

I am 3.5 weeks out and layoffs at work have me stressed. I cant eat,drink or smoke so I am getting snippy. What will my new vice be?

Way to go! An inspiration!

Post em all here. For those days the scale doesn't move. I'll start.

My towel goes all the way around and there's no gap.

I finally got to pull the strings on a pair of shorts.

My work computer uses a password. I have to enter it about 20 times a day. To help get my head in the game I changed it to an affirming message of weight loss success. Every little thing helps. Now I say it in my head when I see people eating.