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Thank you for your post. It has taken me many days and nights of being stressed, angry, depressed and crying to come to terms with the fact that I am a slower loser than I had imagined. It would be a lie to say i am not a happier person now but I was hoping things would be easier, that this would be a way of life rather than feel like I am on another diet.
What has gotten to me is that by all calculations given by the nut I should be losing more. I have lost 55lbs in the last 6 months. My doctor told me that the first 6 months are the most critical but I feel I haven't done enough and that I have failed. What REALLY screwed me up is I went for my 6-month check-up he told me at one year is where we work on maintenance and my heart sank. I'm nowhere near goal and it just gets harder from here.
As I said I've been able to reconcile I'm just slower and just go with the flow and eventually I'll turtle along. For some reason something in my head snapped that I'm not yet ready to give up battling this stupid weight. I need a boost of weight loss to encourage me so I went back to square one - liquid diet and exercise everyday. This is hard work and not fun... It's a diet and the last thing I wanted. I'm just trying to think of the goal...a few months of really hard work will be worth it.
Sorry it is late and my day was filled with yucky Protein shakes lol...I feel a little grumpy.

Thank you for your post. It has taken me many days and nights of being stressed, angry, depressed and crying to come to terms with the fact that I am a slower loser than I had imagined. It would be a lie to say i am not a happier person now but I was hoping things would be easier, that this would be a way of life rather than feel like I am on another diet.
What has gotten to me is that by all calculations given by the nut I should be losing more. I have lost 55lbs in the last 6 months. My doctor told me that the first 6 months are the most critical but I feel I haven't done enough and that I have failed. What REALLY screwed me up is I went for my 6-month check-up he told me at one year is where we work on maintenance and my heart sank. I'm nowhere near goal and it just gets harder from here.
As I said I've been able to reconcile I'm just slower and just go with the flow and eventually I'll turtle along. For some reason something in my head snapped that I'm not yet ready to give up battling this stupid weight. I need a boost of weight loss to encourage me so I went back to square one - liquid diet and exercise everyday. This is hard work and not fun... It's a diet and the last thing I wanted. I'm just trying to think of the goal...a few months of really hard work will be worth it.
Sorry it is late and my day was filled with yucky Protein shakes lol...I feel a little grumpy.

Thank you for your post. It has taken me many days and nights of being stressed, angry, depressed and crying to come to terms with the fact that I am a slower loser than I had imagined. It would be a lie to say i am not a happier person now but I was hoping things would be easier, that this would be a way of life rather than feel like I am on another diet.
What has gotten to me is that by all calculations given by the nut I should be losing more. I have lost 55lbs in the last 6 months. My doctor told me that the first 6 months are the most critical but I feel I haven't done enough and that I have failed. What REALLY screwed me up is I went for my 6-month check-up he told me at one year is where we work on maintenance and my heart sank. I'm nowhere near goal and it just gets harder from here.
As I said I've been able to reconcile I'm just slower and just go with the flow and eventually I'll turtle along. For some reason something in my head snapped that I'm not yet ready to give up battling this stupid weight. I need a boost of weight loss to encourage me so I went back to square one - liquid diet and exercise everyday. This is hard work and not fun... It's a diet and the last thing I wanted. I'm just trying to think of the goal...a few months of really hard work will be worth it.
Sorry it is late and my day was filled with yucky Protein shakes lol...I feel a little grumpy.

I started C25k yesterday. I've been horribly scared of trying it out because I've always HATED running and was horrible at it. But I've always wanted to love it. I was really surprised that the first day was pretty easy. I had nothing to fear! My knees felt it a little but it went away after 15 mins. I think they're just complaining after years of laziness!
I'm so excited to run again! I would have tonight but I want to take it slow

You will see it one day. I started at 279 and honestly only saw it at around 205. I still feel very fat but my brain has finally caught up and I can admit I'm "not as fat as I once was"

I started C25k yesterday. I've been horribly scared of trying it out because I've always HATED running and was horrible at it. But I've always wanted to love it. I was really surprised that the first day was pretty easy. I had nothing to fear! My knees felt it a little but it went away after 15 mins. I think they're just complaining after years of laziness!
I'm so excited to run again! I would have tonight but I want to take it slow

Also remember you can add unflavored Protein powder to liquids without enough protein like Soups, sf pudding, tea, coffee, cream of wheat, etc

Make sure you are sipping very very slowly. Take breaks between sips.
I couldn't drink much at first either. I know that tightness too but now 4-weeks out I only feel it with heavy food, not drinks. So yes you will get better.

Highest was 283. Surgery was 255. I picked 140 as my goal weight because at 5'3 that's the weight I would be considered normal. I'd be ok with around 160 though.

You look gorgeous and younger! I love your black and white dress

I've made the cauliflower pizza too. First time turned out great, second not as much because we made it too large. I like it better smaller so the middle of the crust bakes more. Found the recipe just by googling.

I thought my c-section was more painful in the first few days but the pain between both is lasting the same length. I'm 10- days pot op and only now feel like I'm getting back to normal and can bend and move normally. I'm slower to recover though.

I was sleeved the 24th. Day of surgery my scale said 255, theirs was 257. This morning mine said 244 so around 12lbs lost. Not bad as I came home from the hospital the same weight with all the IV Fluid I received. Tomorrow is my (early) 2-week appointment. I haven't been able to reach my Protein or fluid goal yet for the day but I'm not too worried. I'm supposed to be on full liquids for 4 weeks but I don't know if I can handle it for that long. I find most what I have to eat unappetizing. It's either a shake or Soup I have to add yucky Protein Powder to. I hope I can move on to mushies sooner. I'm dying for an egg or tuna salad.< /p>

I was sleeved the 24th. Day of surgery my scale said 255, theirs was 257. This morning mine said 244 so around 12lbs lost. Not bad as I came home from the hospital the same weight with all the IV Fluid I received. Tomorrow is my (early) 2-week appointment. I haven't been able to reach my Protein or fluid goal yet for the day but I'm not too worried. I'm supposed to be on full liquids for 4 weeks but I don't know if I can handle it for that long. I find most what I have to eat unappetizing. It's either a shake or Soup I have to add yucky Protein Powder to. I hope I can move on to mushies sooner. I'm dying for an egg or tuna salad.< /p>

Good to know... I never associated my eating problems as 'emotional' because I never ate when I was. Reading the forums for a few weeks now, I started to realize maybe everyone does have a problem with food in some way. So again I hope over the next few weeks and month I find out more about myself and have the strength to realize and change it . I already feel a small change that food isn't as important just being on this pre-op diet.

I want to wear trendy clothes like tights or jeggings with a long shirt and tall boots!!
I want to be able to paint my toes without trying to contort into an uncomfortable position where I still can't see them too well.
I want to go to the beach or pool in a bathing suit and not have to pretend to myself that I'm just not in the mood for swimming.

We're getting sleeved the same day at the exact same time. Oh and pretty close too. I'm in the Bay Area. Good luck to us both!

Mine is at 7:30am and I have to be there 5:15! yikes. I know I won't get much sleep.
Good luck on yours. I hope we both do amazing.

You look gorgeous and younger! I love your black and white dress

We got let out of the hospital Wednesday morning. He was put on anti-seizure medication and had been seizure-free for 24 hours so we were allowed to leave.. thank god, we all hated the hospital. However on Thursday night and Friday morning he had more seizures right before his medication runs out so we were told to up the dosage. Seems to be working now... no seizures since then and he's finally acting normal again except a little tired. He's been acting more cuddly and wanting to hug mommy and daddy a lot so there is that.
Today finally felt like a normal day and liquid diet has been great, not even suffering. Thank you so much for asking!

We got let out of the hospital Wednesday morning. He was put on anti-seizure medication and had been seizure-free for 24 hours so we were allowed to leave.. thank god, we all hated the hospital. However on Thursday night and Friday morning he had more seizures right before his medication runs out so we were told to up the dosage. Seems to be working now... no seizures since then and he's finally acting normal again except a little tired. He's been acting more cuddly and wanting to hug mommy and daddy a lot so there is that.
Today finally felt like a normal day and liquid diet has been great, not even suffering. Thank you so much for asking!

Thank you HappyCamper. I think we will be facing the same thing with my son. He had several more seizures last night so looks like he's just going to be one of those kids with seizures and hopefully we'll be as lucky as your daughter and he'll outgrow his in a few years.
Right now the surgery is still on. Husband is adamant I do it. I'm very thankful for him. Thank you everyone for the kind words.

Hey Laurabr1. Looks like we have a lot of things in common. I'm 5'3 too and my highest weight was 283 (though first consul at the doctor was 279). And like you my surgery will be July 24th!
Personally, I'm so excited for the surgery already though I do fear the recovery. You have no idea how many times I've thought "I must be crazy to be choosing to remove part of my stomache permanently and forever change myself... there is no going back!! Why can't I just try harder to diet and exercise?" Well I have been trying to diet and exercise for the past 3 months now ever since my first WLS seminar. I cut out soft drinks, coffee and started a low carb/low fat diet. I haven't followed it always but I have definitely been eating better. Two weeks ago I also started replacing Breakfast with a shake to get ready for the liquid diet. I have managed to lose a bit of weight, now down to around 266... but I have been stuck at around 265-268 for over a month!! I just cannot break the number and this is how I know I really need this surgery. I need a better tool and I know I don't have enough will power and strength to do this on my own. Most importantly I have been miserable and hungry all the time and I don't want to have this feeling anymore. I feel really confident this will be the right choice for me at the end but I know it's scary and it's hard to imagine it right now.
I'll be thinking of you as we head to surgery together! Good luck to you. Let's hope we both have an easy surgery and easier recovery.

Yeah I have this same issue. I walk around thinking I look pretty good and then I see a picture of myself or see myself in a full-body mirror and I cringe because my largness surprises me.
It's better than having body dysmorphia because I will be satisfied with my results even if I never reach goal weight. I can still remember when I was 180lbs, size 12/14 in college and I felt so good about myself and I was still overweight. So really it's a matter of my body catching up to my mind, not the other way around.

Thank you HappyCamper. I think we will be facing the same thing with my son. He had several more seizures last night so looks like he's just going to be one of those kids with seizures and hopefully we'll be as lucky as your daughter and he'll outgrow his in a few years.
Right now the surgery is still on. Husband is adamant I do it. I'm very thankful for him. Thank you everyone for the kind words.