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missmachine

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  1. missmachine

    Mourning Food

    I guess I have been feeling depressed lately knowing that I will never just be able to sit down and enjoy a meal again. Eating isn't the same when you get full on 4oz of food. Does anyone else mourn food/eating? I am sad I will never have a calzone or a burrito again lol. I suppose my feelings are intensified by the fact that I am losing weight very slowly. It's been almost 5 weeks and I've only lost 20 lbs post op. I just miss food, the foods I will never have again, and the act of having an actual meal as opposed to 4 bites of food. I feel like im being punished...but i guess i deserve it. I abused my old stomach and turned myself into a disgusting cow. I'd be ok with this punishment if I was losing. I'm only 5'3" so I am very round and it takes a while to feel/see weight loss. Am I alone with these feelings? Seems like everyone else is doing awesome.
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    I Can't Poop. :-(

    I take Metamucil pills and stool softener everyday but it's been about 5 days I think since the last time I pooped. Been drinking drinks with Miralax all day today. Yesterday I had to poo but only a tiny bit came out. I was in pain all night with horrible poop cramps, so much that I was being woken up from sleep and in tears. I took some IBS medicine and that allowed me to sleep. I thought for sure something would come out today. I'm starting to worry. I don't want to eat anything else until something comes out...?
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    I Can't Poop. :-(

    Thanks everyone. I am broke until tomorrow so I think I'll just keep on with the miralax today and if nothing happens go and grab some suppositories or an enema tomorrow. I was doing fine pooping until now. I'm 6 weeks out of surgery and been eating like 1000 cals.
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    I Can't Poop. :-(

    I'm 6 weeks out today!
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    Gazelle Fitness Trainer

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    Gazelle Fitness Trainer

    I was wearing gym shoes
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    Mourning Food

    Thank you everyone...I love this forum!
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    Sleeping Aids - Ambien Okay?

    This is all too funny! I was going to see if I could get a script for ambien as well. I take melatonin and/or Tylenol PM regularly since before surgery 5 wks ago, kept taking it even right after w/o any problems - other than the fact that I still don't really sleep well and I toss and turn all night. I figured I need something stronger. I also wake up about 3 times to pee. I have been like this since before surgery. I don't know what to do, I really wish I could sleep through the night.
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    Fake Sugar

    The thing to remember is that Stevia is not an "artificial" sweetener. It comes from a plant just like sugar and is all natural, there are no chemicals in it. It just so happens to be a calorie-free sweetener. If you are eating Splenda, Equal, or Sweet & Low - THOSE are chemically based artificial sweeteners. If you read up on them, you will find that they have tar, arsenic, and all kinds of crazy sh^t. IMO, go with Stevia or organic sugar (turbinado; "sugar in the raw").
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    June Sleevers! Hows It Going?

    I was sleeved June 11th and I'm another "slow loser." I've only lost 21 lbs since surgery.
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    Body Dysmorphia In Reverse

    I, too, can relate! I always knew I was fat but still thought I looked good sometimes, and clean up nice, etc. I think we were all in denial. It's a defense mechinism because to face reality would be too painful. I always have my parents telling me I am too big, but I would just tell myself I don't look that bad and they are just being jerks. Then if I saw a picture of me looking really big, I would be horrified, and would think that's not what I *really* look like. I think that's why as we lose weight a lot of times we don't *see* it ourselves, because in our minds, we always looked that way. I can't wait to drop this weight, get new boobs and a new tummy... and for once actually look great!
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    Dr. Alejandro Lopez

    No your incisions are not stapled shut. I think they use some kind of glue or disintigrating stitch on the inside. I had a problem with mine popping open.
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    Dr. Alejandro Lopez

    He does use a drain and it comes out the night before your flight leaves. The staples stay in your new stomach and that's how it's held together. I believe he does sew over the staple line as well.
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    Most Humiliating Fat Moment

    I did actually, but we ended up getting back together. He apologized and said he was just embarrassed and upset, but I know there was a lot of truth to it all.
  15. I am 4 weeks out. I still get hungry all the time. The past week I've been eating about 1200 calories a day. It's because I get hungry every 1-2 hours. Food still has a hold over me and I feel like I can't control myself. I know I will probably get a lot of sh^t from everyone here for eating so much, and I am embarrassed, but I am desperate and I need help. If I was just dieting I would be really proud of myself because I am doing better than I was before surgery. But I had the surgery and I feel like I should be more full and less interested in food at this point. If I had good willpower I wouldn't have needed surgery. It's taking all of my effort to only eat the 1200 calories. I have been eating super high protein. Mostly meat and veggies and cheese. I don't know what to do. I am so upset and I feel like a failure.
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    The 3 Week Stall

    It's been 10 days since my scale has moved in the right direction and I am 4 weeks out now. I have only lost 19 lbs since my surgery. I lost 6 pre-op.
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    Most Humiliating Fat Moment

    Just a couple of months ago I was walking out of a store as these two guys in their 20's (I'm 31) were walking in. As we crossed paths one of the guys wasn't paying attention and bumped into me, then he turned and said "ahhh I'm sorry, don't eat me!" I was there shopping for a bathing suit because we were going to the beach for my sons birthday the next day. I didn't want to and I hadn't been in years, but I somehow had myself believing that I didn't look "that bad" in the suit I picked out. But after that happened, I wanted to hide in my room like usual. It gets worse. So, the next day we go to the beach with my boyfriend and son because that's what my son wanted to do for his bday. I put on my fat lady bathing suit and had a good time. When I got home, later that evening I caught my boyfriend jerking off to pictures and videos of girls in bikinis. So I guess I thought we had good family time at the beach but he was really just staring at hot young skinny chicks and couldn't wait to get home and take care of himself. Then he told me that maybe if I went to the gym occasionally, he wouldn't need to look at porn. Of course it's ok that he is chubby, because the same rules don't apply to men.
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    Fake Sugar

    Have you tried Truvia? It's the best and most natural tasting IMO. If you don't like that I would get some organic sugar/turbinado and just use a little bit. It's not gonna kill ya, just don't go overboard.
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    Dr. Alejandro Lopez

    Mine was 4 weeks ago. I am down 25 lbs total (19 lbs since surgery). I think I am going to be a slow loser. I am doing alright. The problems I was having before are pretty much gone. I still have a weird incision that looks like it is healing as an open hole. I did decide to take an LoA from my job an focus on getting healthy.
  20. Wow that's amazing? How much did you weigh when you started and what was your goal?

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