Pre-OpLoser619

Hi... My name is Heather and I am currently waiting to get through my 3 month mandatory insurance waiting period before they can submit my paperwork for surgery approval.  I have been heavy my whole life pretty much since I was about 6 or so.  I, like most of you, have tried all the diets and though I lost some weight, it never stayed off.  I did lose a large amount of weight when I was 15-16 (96lbs) through Physician's Weight Loss, but was never taught how to maintain it and so I got it all back and then some.  That was pretty much the only time I remember being at a "normal" weight my whole life and let me tell you it was GRAND! Lol! It was in my prime of high school too, so it was nice to feel like everyone else for a change instead of the funny, smart fat girl.  I got to buy a whole new wardrobe and everything.  It lasted about a year, if that and just crept back on. I met my husband when I was still a smaller size (about 200), I was 17, see how fast it came back.  He loved me the way I was and still does even though I have been as high as 347 (during my pregnancy 5 yrs ago).  He supports me in whatever I want to do, but is definitely scared about me having this surgery.  We have an almost 5 year old daughter who is the light of our life.  She's our miracle baby.  I have PCOS and was not supposed to be able to have kids,  then low and behold, I come up pregnant and have this kid 2 days before our 10 year wedding anniversary, lol, what a terrific gift from God!!!  I had a pretty rough pregnancy due to my weight and health issues, so I do not plan on having another child unless it's God's will that I do, lol.  I looked into having bariatric surgery about 7 years ago after being diagnosed with HBP. At the time it was between Gastric Bypass and the Lap Band.  It ended up being put on the back burner and then my employer's insurance quit covering it.  Skip to 2 years ago, I started looking into the Lap Band again, with Dr. Malley.  I had my consult and everything, but ended up not being able to do it because of financial reasons.  So here I am... I went back to Dr. Malley in May/June and was looking at the Lap Band or the Sleeve and the more I read and learned the more I leaned towards the Sleeve and finally decided on it.  I've had my psych eval, my first Nut visit and my first pcp visit.  I am waiting to see my pcp again on Monday for my second visit and then I'll have my second Nut visit after that.  It's all going so fast!  I have to be honest, in that I am definitely scared and nervous about the surgery.  While I think it will definitely change my life for the better in soooo many ways, I am scared sh*tless of dying and leaving my family!  I have been saying prayers that God will guide me through this and if it is meant to be it will be and if not, it won't.  Anyways... that's where I am as of today (July 3rd, 2012).  Wishing you all the best in your journeys!