New York Beauty

Well it's been 11 days since my surgery and i feel fantastic! (15 lbs down) however thanksgiving day was a real torture for me!!
This is the first thanksgiving i spend with my mom (she lives out of the country) and she came to visit, therefore it was a big deal for me, we cooked EVERYTHING thats soooo delicious and at the same time sooooo bad for our health!
As everybody ate i started making up "excuses" and trying to convince myself to try something mushy even though im still on phase 2 (protein shakes and full liquids) so stubborn that I am, i tried a tiny bit of mashed potatoes and a piece of dark meat turkey... everything was fine and dandy until the cold sweats and the nausea started!!!
I felt HORRIBLE!!! and I was so mad at myself for not following instructions!
If your doctor says DO NOT EAT SOLIDS guess what?! DONT! they know what they're doing and that's why they're professionals!
So after i ate i was trying for about an hour to debate whether i should or shouldn't vomit, and after taking zofran to calm the nausea i promised to myself never to eat solids until my stomach is ready to handle it.
I guess what i'm trying to say is cheating it's NOT worth it!! At the end of the day the food will always be there so compromising our health and well being for food it's not worth it. Needless to say, it ruined my thanksgiving and everybodys (Since they were worried about me)

Well, my Hospital just called me today for my pre-registration information for my sleeve surgery coming up Nov 6th! Wow, it's getting "so real" now. LOL Another step towards my new beginnings! I have the butterflies in my stomach when I think about my surgery day.
I wish I didn't get anxiety so fricken bad! I know the night before I won't sleep well, and I will feel sick to my stomach the morning of. *Sigh* Kathy

IT HAS BEEN FIVE MONTHS SINCE MY LIFE CHANGED!!
 
I walked in this morning wearing a new outfit. Complete chaos lol!!!! My "friend" started acting up again. Ever since my surgery, she started a crazy eating pattern and exercise day and night it seems like. She sat there and said NOTHING.
 
Once the other coworkers walked away, we started discussing the day and plans for the weekend. She found a new cool place and was thinking of going there Saturday night. I said awesome and then she said this: this is going to be fun, although I am not sure of "this" new you. You are no longer the beautiful SAFE friend. WTF?!?
I smiled and said " what you mean to say is, I am no longer the fat friend and you have seen nothing yet cupcake"
 
This is fuel for me. I am determine to be the beautiful, skinny, unsafe friend. Her and others that think like her, have no idea what's coming
P.S I learned today (from my NUT) it is important to keep my calories up above 600 calories. For my body to process protein properly and boost weight loss, my caloric intake have to be at a good level. From 600 to 800 but no higher than 1000 with exercise of course.