lageniafaye

I had my fill done and the nurse said to eat the 6 oz three times a day and advance my diet now. So I came home and measured out 6 ounces in little bowls. I guess I never realized how much 6 ounces was. The piece of meat was something my husband would take in one bite. I decided for my breakfast I would eat the egg because bagles are a little hard to swollow down(but a good source of protein). For lunch I would do the 4oz of meat and 2 oz of vegs. And for supper have the full 6 oz of meat because I work evenings and want my energy.I really need to get back into the protein shakes now that I can open the container without a gag or two
I really haven't been two hungry except when I have to work and get home late. More then anything its in my head because I use to eat when I get home. Bad habits die hard!!

I am almost over this phase of my diet and in a couple days I will start my 3 meals a day. I go get my band filled Thursday and have to say I am pretty excited. I have been hungry all week and want to get past that. I have stabled out on my weight loss, kind of disappointing to get on the scale and see it has not moved. I just dont want to fail.
I finished my first three days back at work. A stressful night ended it all. Glad to be off tomorrow and my focus is going to be to find meal ideas for when I start my three meals a day...wish me luck!!!

I was one of those people who got restriction quickly and lost a lot of weight quickly at first. 14 months later I am at a stand still. i know it is my fault and my eating habits. It also is that I have not dealt with my head issues. I have an addiction to food. i have had a couple of unfills over the last couple of months due to stuck issues. Yesterday I went in after having 1 cc taken out 3 weeks ago and i gained almost 6 lbs. I wasn't surprised. More surprised that it wasn't more, honestly. I've been an eating machine. I've been drinking sugary drinks, eating ice cream, cake. Anything i wasn't supposed to be. The unfill was like a free pass to eat in my head. UGH!!
 
I have kept up with exercise routine though. It is definitely the reason I hadn't gained more. So yesterday I had .75cc put back in my band. This morning I got up and went to the gym. As I write this I am drinking my protein shake. I have already had 32 oz of water. I am back full force. Tomorrow I made plans with a friend to go to the local hs track to walk and do the stairs.
 
6lbs scared the crap out of me. It can come back so fast. At that rate I would put back the 130lbs I lost in less than a year!!! I will not do it. I did not put myself at risk to have surgery to be a failure. I will suceed at this. I will be a long term success! I will do it for myself and my family. I am so much happier now. I feel so much better on days when I work out and eat healthy. I just have to take it one day at a time like i did in the beginning.
 
I'm going to post on here daily to keep myself accountable. I will set one goal a day for myself! Today my goal is to find a therapist and make an appointment. I need to work on the head!
 
I'm looking forward to a great weekend!

You know it is terrible when the person your with HATES on you and I mean HATES on you. They know how hard you worked to loose the weght but in-directly try to do things to discourage you. I SAY THIS TO THE LAPBAND COMMUNITY: DON'T LET NOTHING OR NO-ONE HOLD YOU BACK FROM YOUR OWN PERSONAL ACHIEVEMENTS. We know how we felt before we got the surgery. I am down from 250 to 175 and still going strong. MY GREATEST ADVICE IS LOVE YOU, EVERYDAY TRY TO DO KNEW THINGS, LEARN ABOUT YOUSELF.
 
I also start watching the cooking channels. My favorite is "NOT MY MOMMA COOKING" Bobby is so fine!
 
Somestimes we can be so TESTED. As I always say "I DIDN;T GET CUT FOR NOTHING".
 
Love yourself please because no one will treat you and love you as good as you treat youself.

YAY for today! I got to start mushies today. So I woke up, did 32 minutes of Zumba and ate the awesomest scrambled eggs ever. It was really hard not to drink with my meal. I tried to practice this pre surgery, and it did not go well. I told myself it would be easier when I was only eating a 1/4 cup of food. No, not easier. However, I am not going to dwell on this because this morning has been sooo great. I feel fantastic. It felt so good to work up a sweat with the Zumba. I have been so cravin, shakin my booty. I did the low intensity. I was not able to add my own steez or Shakira it out, as this hurt a little.
 
I'm planning to eat some cottage cheese for lunch and some beans for dinner. I'm also going to go on a walk later. I am soo happy to be on mushies. We are leaving on a trip tomorrow and it will be much easier to be able to eat a little something.

My weight is fluxuating between 216 and 222 - feels like I'm circling the drain so to speak. Plugging along with Weight Watchers and working out but having a hard time getting my weight to stablize. Considered going in for a fill, but it seems like I'm stuck at least once a day and vomitting at least once a week. Wish I could say it's consistantly due to the same food violations(pizza, bagels, bread - you know, the "No-No's") but it happened the other morning with my scrambled eggs(couldn't even get them down - my dog loved it though) and I had a fun two hour bout in the bathroom the other night over one stalk of steamed asparagus and less than an ounce of grilled chicken. I can actually eat a slice of thin crust pizza with no problem. Don't really eat bread anymore and forget bagels - but when three mini pretzels cause a problem it gets frustrating. Sometimes I'm afraid to go out to eat for fear that I going to have an incident. Frankly, there are many days when I make my breakfast or lunch and it takes 45 minutes to get it down! Oh well - I keep reminding myself that my weight gain was my own damn fault and now I'm paying the price.
 
Speaking of prices paid - with the weight loss has come the giant jelly roll which fortunately with the right spanx-type garment I can mostly conceal, but I gotta wonder how much this thing weighs? Oh so much fun to have to buy pants etc to accomedate the "roll' then have to have the waist taken in!
 
Came home from the gym the other day and notice this sweaty(wet?) semi-circle on the lower abdomen of my yoga pants. Probably TMI, but I'm now getting a permenant red rash and tissue breakdown under the "roll". I'm using baby butt cream and powder in an attempt to keep it dry, but if it's this bad now, what'll it be when(if) I get to my goal weight ...another 75 pounds from now?! Maybe I should just pack the area with paper towel, throw on my gridle and live with it!
 
Amusingly enough, my insurance will cover the surgery since I had WLS - but if I just lost the weight on my own it wouldn't!?!
The plastic surgeons I met with re; my breast reconstruction also consulted on my "tummy tuck" - they suggest that I need to be at or near my goal weight before even considering the latter procedure. Course with a roll this big, maybe they could just pull it up and create some faux boobs!