Tif 2.0

As strange as this sounds, I don't know who I am. I know the version of me that everyone sees, but I feel like there is another me inside that yearns to get out.
I'm 37 and have been with my husband for 16 years, the last 10 of them married. We have 1 son that took us 11 years to conceive, not that we were trying early in our relationship, but we didn't do anything to prevent either. I have PCOS and was first diagnosed at age 15 before anyone really knew ANYTHING about it. I have been overweight my entire life. The last time I wore a bikini I was 10 and I probably shouldn't have been wearing it then. LOL!
I feel like I'm becoming self aware for the first time in a really long time. I have focused on everyone else's needs and put my to the side. And when I say everyone, I mean flippin everyone. It is not an exaggeration to say when anyone in my family needs something I have dropped what I was doing to help out in whatever capacity I can. During family tragedies, everyone figures that I'll take care of whatever needs to be done. In alot of ways, my mom and I have reversed roles, I am the mom and she is the daughter. She had me very young and she has a case of arrested development.
My son started kindergarten this past September and as he has become more autonomous, I feel like I've been gaining some of myself back with every milestone he has passed. He is a bigger cheerleader than anyone. He tells me that he can give me bigger hugs and I haven't even had surgery yet, but I have lost almost 30 lbs.
So, I'm on my journey to Tif 2.0, with my Ipod (with the kindle app lol), backpack and my son and I'm REALLY happy to be on my way.

Last week I was at 210.4, this morning I weighed in at 207.
8 lbs til I'm under 200. YAY!

Last week I was at 210.4, this morning I weighed in at 207.
8 lbs til I'm under 200. YAY!

Last week I was at 210.4, this morning I weighed in at 207.
8 lbs til I'm under 200. YAY!

Last week I was at 210.4, this morning I weighed in at 207.
8 lbs til I'm under 200. YAY!

I went back to work a week after surgery. I wish I would've taken 2 only because by mid afternoon I was exhausted.

Finally over my stall. Which is surprising since it's been a completely off track week for me food wise. But I weighed in at 197.4 today - so not only did I get past the stall but I hit onederland too!

Weight before surgery: 234
Date of surgery: 8/11/2011
Current Weight: 133.8
Goal weight for oct 31st: 134
I made my goal for the first time ever! I have been doing these challenges since last Halloween. I had never made one yet and one full year later I did it! I have lost 100 pounds now belong in the century club now. I am a size 4 in most things. I am so happy to have done it. Now to see if I can maintain it!

Last week I was at 211.8, this morning 210.4.
I'll take -1.4, especially since I'm off track at the gym. Gonna start back up today.

Last week I was at 211.8, this morning 210.4.
I'll take -1.4, especially since I'm off track at the gym. Gonna start back up today.

Last week I was at 211.8, this morning 210.4.
I'll take -1.4, especially since I'm off track at the gym. Gonna start back up today.

You wanted the Cookies, but you didn't eat them... You don't want to go to the gym, but you do... Your 2yr old wants to share his food, get creative and pretend to eat it, they are easily fooled... Sounds like you should be celebrating these as victories and sign's of strength, that previously you would have caved in for.

Last wk 199. Now IM 197.

Well last week I didn't log in because I was bummed. I ate things I shouldn't have on Labor Day and didn't drink all my Water that weekend and I gained 6 lbs. Now I KNOW I didn't eat enough to really gain 6 lbs, but I absolutely could've retained that much Water. Well it's taken 2 weeks to take that all back off plus .8 lbs.
I'm now at 211.8 and on my way for my Halloween challenge. I REALLY want to be in ONEDERLAND.

Well last week I didn't log in because I was bummed. I ate things I shouldn't have on Labor Day and didn't drink all my Water that weekend and I gained 6 lbs. Now I KNOW I didn't eat enough to really gain 6 lbs, but I absolutely could've retained that much Water. Well it's taken 2 weeks to take that all back off plus .8 lbs.
I'm now at 211.8 and on my way for my Halloween challenge. I REALLY want to be in ONEDERLAND.

IM finally in one derland!!!!!!!!!!!! Im 199!!!!! For a 91 pound loss ...last wk I weighed 202

As strange as this sounds, I don't know who I am. I know the version of me that everyone sees, but I feel like there is another me inside that yearns to get out.
I'm 37 and have been with my husband for 16 years, the last 10 of them married. We have 1 son that took us 11 years to conceive, not that we were trying early in our relationship, but we didn't do anything to prevent either. I have PCOS and was first diagnosed at age 15 before anyone really knew ANYTHING about it. I have been overweight my entire life. The last time I wore a bikini I was 10 and I probably shouldn't have been wearing it then. LOL!
I feel like I'm becoming self aware for the first time in a really long time. I have focused on everyone else's needs and put my to the side. And when I say everyone, I mean flippin everyone. It is not an exaggeration to say when anyone in my family needs something I have dropped what I was doing to help out in whatever capacity I can. During family tragedies, everyone figures that I'll take care of whatever needs to be done. In alot of ways, my mom and I have reversed roles, I am the mom and she is the daughter. She had me very young and she has a case of arrested development.
My son started kindergarten this past September and as he has become more autonomous, I feel like I've been gaining some of myself back with every milestone he has passed. He is a bigger cheerleader than anyone. He tells me that he can give me bigger hugs and I haven't even had surgery yet, but I have lost almost 30 lbs.
So, I'm on my journey to Tif 2.0, with my Ipod (with the kindle app lol), backpack and my son and I'm REALLY happy to be on my way.

I started this journey at 371 pounds. Two months, two weeks and one day after surgery I have met my second goal of losing 100 pounds! Now on to my third goal: 250 pounds.
I have to say it does feel nice to not be at my former weight.

I started the Labor Day Challenge a little late. 7 weeks ago. My goals were to lose 15 lbs, log all my food and exercise and run for 30 minutes.
SW: 226
CW: 212.4
GW: 211
I did not lose 15 lbs, but I just logged into MFP for the 51st day in a row and I can run 3 miles at 36 minutes.

Thanks sexyme I'm definitely looking forward to being out of the 2s!

Met my Labor Day goal..woo hoo so excited to start this new challenge.
Weight before surgery 298 (was my highest weight 11/11)
Surgery 12/27/11
Current weight 215
Goal weight 199

Weight day of surgery: 277
Surgery date: 04/13/2012
Current weight: 204.8
Goal weight by Oct 31: 185
Going to set my goal weight at 185 for challenge. Only been losing 1½ - 2 pounds per week at this point. Hoping it speeds up again!

As strange as this sounds, I don't know who I am. I know the version of me that everyone sees, but I feel like there is another me inside that yearns to get out.
I'm 37 and have been with my husband for 16 years, the last 10 of them married. We have 1 son that took us 11 years to conceive, not that we were trying early in our relationship, but we didn't do anything to prevent either. I have PCOS and was first diagnosed at age 15 before anyone really knew ANYTHING about it. I have been overweight my entire life. The last time I wore a bikini I was 10 and I probably shouldn't have been wearing it then. LOL!
I feel like I'm becoming self aware for the first time in a really long time. I have focused on everyone else's needs and put my to the side. And when I say everyone, I mean flippin everyone. It is not an exaggeration to say when anyone in my family needs something I have dropped what I was doing to help out in whatever capacity I can. During family tragedies, everyone figures that I'll take care of whatever needs to be done. In alot of ways, my mom and I have reversed roles, I am the mom and she is the daughter. She had me very young and she has a case of arrested development.
My son started kindergarten this past September and as he has become more autonomous, I feel like I've been gaining some of myself back with every milestone he has passed. He is a bigger cheerleader than anyone. He tells me that he can give me bigger hugs and I haven't even had surgery yet, but I have lost almost 30 lbs.
So, I'm on my journey to Tif 2.0, with my Ipod (with the kindle app lol), backpack and my son and I'm REALLY happy to be on my way.

It's been a couple weeks since I've logged in here, but I'm down 3.2 more lbs. I've lost 105 total. WHOOHOO!

It's been a couple weeks since I've logged in here, but I'm down 3.2 more lbs. I've lost 105 total. WHOOHOO!