PEvette

I got up this morning and got dressed for my job interview today. WHAT A MESS! None, and I mean NONE of my clothes fit me - some were too small (granted I was expecting that) but the ones I JUST BOUGHT were too big. And not tuck here or pin there too big - TOO FREAKING BIG. I had to run to Kohls and buy new clothes because I had NOTHING to wear! I put on a pair of pants that, I was going to wear to Mexico for surgery less than 3 weeks ago and they were just too tight - not comfortable at all. Today, they're too big. I mean TOO BIG! Like awkwardly too big! I'm so excited about this! I wonder if i still have the receipt....

So How does dating work after WLS? I mean I was told today that I was a bautiful personality,and a voluptuous body.absoutely gorgeous eyes, !!! now when do i tell him I will no longer have a vovoluptuous body?? lol.. of corse I find someone who loves BBW after I have WLS??? just my luck!

So my first VSG blog entry, how exciting! A chronicle of the minutiae of a pre-sleevers journey towards a new life...and oh how I want that new life. To excuse a bad pun, I want it so much that I can practically taste it. I figured even if I'm only talking to myself and sending these blogs out into the ether, then at least I can get how I feel on this journey down on paper. It may be interesting to look at a year from now and actually know what I felt and how I changed without the rose tinted glasses that time often gives our recollections. Or perhaps at the end of this journey, when I've met all my goals I will ceremoniously hit 'Delete'. *grin*.
 
Right now I'm a 29 years old woman, 5'5" ant 270 lbs, no kids, no SO, but with a ton of friends and a close family who are being (for the most part) very supportive. I do have a rather crazy cat, but I personally think she would be horrified at a reduction in cushy lap space. My deepest desires are to run marathons, complete Tough Mudders, join canine Search and Rescue, become a published writer, and to get married and have kids. I don't know about the other ladies out there, but I'm damned sick and tired of being "the girl with the hilarious personality" with the unspoken "too bad she's fat" tacked on the end. There is more to me than my weight and I finally reached the breaking point where I could give up and accept that my dreams would forever only be dreams...or I could take the bull by the horns, pull up my big-girl panties and figure out how to become a woman that can forge her own path. To that end I left a job that made me miserable, moved to a different state and now have a job and friends that make me smile and actually dance at work. As my dad found his courage to go through a surgery he was terrified of, I in turn found mine to take the next step.
 
To that end, my first bariatric doctor's appointment is Tuesday and I can't wait. I've been working hard at proper nutrition, weight lifting, yoga, and running to get my body in the best shape possible to tolerate surgery and to kick tail once I'm through it. I'm reading books to figure out why I eat what I do and how emotions dictate my eating. I'm calling it the three-pronged attack so that I am ready emotionally, mentally, and physically for what is to come.
 
Life is good, and with better health it can only get better!
 
Feeling Five by Five!
~Lyra
 
"Remember, Ginger Rogers did everything Fred Astaire did, but backwards and in high heels. "
~Faith Whittlesey

Tip of the day:
 
 
When you want to binge and don't care what goes in your mouth. Just remember how far you have worked to get where you are. Feeling this way? Change your attitude... Do a positive thing for yourself. Take a walk, read a book, do some crafts. Get your mind off the food and back on track. Remember a moment on your lips is forever on your hips!

1. Protein powder ordered and actually on its way.
2. Mini toiletries - getting tonite at Walgreens
3. Liquid diet items purchased for both pre and post op
4. Gas-X strips finally found!
5. Comfy clothes chosen
6. Carry on bags found.
7. Decide which technology to take. (I'm thinking just phone and kindle
8. Flights confirmed
9. Need to make hotel reservation for San Diego
10. Passport cards in hand!
11. Doggy-sitter arranged!
12. Ready to go!

I have read a lot of the blogs and am wondering if I am doing things wrong because I have not stalled yet. I am 18 days post op and am still losing weight average about 1 to 2 lbs a day. What is wrong with me or the diet that I have not stalled?
 
I weighted 341 when I started this journey, before surgery I lost about 14lbs just by changing how long it took to eat my meals. They didn't tell to diet before surgery just thought I better get in the habit of eating slower. Since my surgery I have gone from 337 to 305 another 32lbs down. I am trying to do all the right things but am having trouble getting all the protein in. I have been using shots of protein to make up for what I am not getting in the shakes. Could this be the cause of NOT stalling I wonder.
 
I was told I could have soft purred foods at 2 weeks but they don't seem to light my new stomach at all. The food just lies there like a lump making me want to throw up.
I have found that if I eat just 1 meal (an egg) and 2 shakes a day I feel much better. Is this wrong? I don't know.
 
I don;t see much difference in my body shape, but I need a rope to keep my pants up lol. I did however manage to get into a size 26 pant compared to my 28's the other day, "Yeah" and my shirts are a bit loser so I guess that is a good sign.
 
My health was the reason for taking this journey. I was and still am in bad shape. The best news ever was the fact that I no longer have to take insulin shots everyday and my blood sugars are in the normal range again ( low 100's ). I am still concerned that I have not been able to swallow any pills yet, as I do have meds that I should be taking. My blood pressure and moods have not yet improved much, but that is because I can't take those pills yet. Oh well step by step day by day with Jesus is all I can hope for right now.
 
So much for my boo who;s today. May God bless and Keep us all healthy and continuing to lose in the New Year.