LOL TracyK~ I can't smell ya from here! I'll send ya one after this post!
TracyKS~ HELL FREAKIN YEAH GIRLFRIEND! I bet your hair looks smashing (and yes, I wanna see a pix...we all do). Sorry, can I say this....fuck him and the horse he rode in on. I am soooooo glad you cut your hair! I hate it when women lose themselves in relationships. Me, I'd rather lose myself in food, lol! I am sooo freakin proud of you...sending you a high five from California!xoxoxoxo
Speaking of which, I wanted to post something I read, and then re-read today. Powerful stuff from Shrink Yourself: Break Free from Emotional Eating Forever:
"Many people report to me that as they're approaching their goal weight they often saotage themselves and all of their efforts. They wonder why that is. It doesn't seem to make any sense. In fact, you may be able to relate to that experience. The answer, time and again, proves to be simple: if you didn't have your weight to think about your might have to think about what's really bothering you, and that's very frightening. It's frightening because I know that you feel powerless to change the things that really bother you. You've made what I call the "unexamined powerlessness conclusion." It's a conclusion that you're powerless over your feelings and the circumstances in your life that the feelings point toward, so you might as well eat." (Gould, Roger 2007)
I know so many of my violets are successful...but for me (and maybe a few of you) this speaks volumes. Somehow, it is like I don't even wanna lose the weight. Not on a level where I recognize it...just on a level that is deeper than me and my mind. Anyhoo...wanted to share.
Morning all!
As soon as I posted how to give rep power---they moved all the icons!! But it still works the same. Try it out!
Well today is my 1 year bandiversary! In fact one year ago this time, I was being wheeled in to surgery, and was a nervous wreck!! A year later--life is so different! 90 pounds---not a record by any means, but one helluva record for me! I cannot begin to convey the changes, it has brought about. I hang out here, excited to see all of you go through it, your enthusiasm keeps me motivated! The only pictures I have availabel right now are my before and my 50 pound loss pictures. I took a 75 pounds lost, but it was at Christmas, and the decorations on the door behind me, made it difficult to see. I intend on having Rick (DH) take my 1 year photos tonight. I will attach the 50 pound loss pics, just imagine, it is almost that much again---that just blows me away!
I had several little things I put on a list on a thread a year ago that I wanted to accomplish with my band---I have almost met them all in a year!
* I can cross my legs--squat-- sit on the floor and get up with ease
* I rode rides at a local carnival, so know I'll fit roller coasters this summer
* I buy clothes in Misses, no more Plus sizes!
* I no longer feel like people stare at me due to my weight
* I actually liked the family pictures we had made---I ALWAYS hated them before!
* I wanted to be able to share clothes with my DD---and while that has been accomplished, so far it is a one way street, she borrows mine, hers a still a bit small!! But the knowledge that she can wear mine, thrills us both!
* I take NO high blood pressure meds, NO diabetes meds---NOTHING!
* My cholesterol numbers are so good they make my Dr smile!
* I am able to ride my horses again, without feeling like the ASPCA is going to come after me for animal cruelty.
* I hike the farm with my husband, I no longer sit on the edge of a pool, or make excuses to avoid physical outings.
This list could go on, I no longer remember what all was on the first one. There are things I could not have foreseen a year ago, that I find to be awesome success. First of all the friends I have made on this board, have taken on such importance to me. I discuss you in real life, my husband asks about you! I thank each and every one of you for the support and friendship given me this last year--and look forward to the continuation of it! Another amazing aspect of this, was the ability to continue weight loss, or at least maintain during times of HUGE stress. I went through a time back before most of you on the Head Start on Spring board were around, that my stress levels were off the chart! Within a month of my banding, we found out my DH's mitral valve in his heart was failing, and he required open heart surgery. Before he could get it done, he got a blood clot, which took awhile to clear, and his heart kept getting worse. Finally in August he had surgery, successfully---and we thought all was well. But in Oct. He got sick and simply threw up---and due to al the blood thinners, he tore his esophagus, where it attaches to the stomach, and began bleeding profusely--I have never seen so much blood. The Dr. took me to a small room in the hospital, and told me due to the blood thinners, they could not stop the bleeding, that he would likely expire within the next 15 minutes. They were trying an experiment on him, but would I like to be with him as he passed? To tell you this months later makes me cry---I have NEVER been so scared in my life--this man is the love of my life! He was dying! Through some smart Dr.'s and a well timed experiment, they saved him! He ended up with almost 30 units of blood, and half again that of platelets--for the clotting factor. And he has no serious side efects from all of that. Now before my band, I would have been up a minimum of 30 pounds, I would have eaten everything in sight, I am a stress eater! I eat, I cannot sleep---I would have been out of control. The band was a such a blessing, it sat in there and did its job even when I couldn't! And I could sit in the ICU waiting room, waiting to see him without stuffing my face---thinking only of him. It got me through huge stresses---I love this band!
I tell you this long story, so you know that as you head into this next year, you are no longer alone in the weight battle. That little silicon fist is in there wrapped tight around your belly helping every day! And the friends you make here will be there praying for you and for anything that comes your way. I fully believe the prayers that went up from all corners of the USA and 3 different countries for my DH made a difference.
The first month is not always easy---but neither was walking around with the weight---and as you heal it gets so much better!!!! 90 pounds better for me!
The big deal for me today is a 3 way combo----#1 it is my bandiversary, #2. I am down 90 pounds, and #3 that puts me into Onederland!!!!! At least for today!!!
Thanks for listening guys!!!
Kat
Krystal,
Thanks for sharing your story. That was honest, and I am sure, spoke to many people here. If you need motivation, encouragement, and support, LBT is the place for it. And since you are REBANDING in April 07, I invite you to join our group. I have made many friendships there, and know you will feel the support you need. Whether you join us or not, keep using LBT...this is a powerful format that has helped so many.
Keep up the good work and thanks for posting!
kity got a reaction from kiks in Shrinkin' Violets- Part 2 Read Here
kity got a reaction from KRZYGIRLNSTL in READ THIS B4 BEING BANDED...My Experience