PKB

Hi Everyone. My name is Pamela and I am 2 week pre op ( 13 days actually let the count down begin lol) my surgery is on Jan 23rd 2015. I am going with the gastric sleeve, And I am so excited to make the life altering decision. I have been over weight my entire life since grade 2 or since I was 8 years old. I am the oldest out my me family. My brother is a pro mma fighter and really hasn't struggled long term with his weight he was always skinny and fit. My sister she is 11 younger and she always looks up to me. I bite my nails so i use to say don't bite ur nails then they will be ugly like mine so she has beautiful nails. I said watch what u eat I don't ever what u to struggle wuth ur weight like me. And she did, she has this cute figure on her. My mum and dad are amazing never ever made me feel growing up that I was "not normal weight ". My mum always kept us active ( I have a 1st degree black belt in TKD, I swim, I bollywood dance, gymnastics ballet tap jazz u name it I've done it ) . I have stopped performing bollywood cause of my weight and cant wait to get this weight off and start performing again. I don't know why I have struggled. I am married and have one little guy and I probably have the Most amazing husband ever. But I'm tired of feeling like I'm not good enough for him cause he is so handsome. And the worst part is that's just in my head he thinks and says I'm beautiful all the time. My extended family some of them use to say u know what pam u have always had a pretty face now u just need a body to go with it . Well guess what I am done with having the pretty face. I want my matching body with it to and made this decision to better my life so I can be around for my 3 year old son longer and healthier and keep him as active as my mum made us. I am so excited and I am excited to be part of this large community as well. Everyone personally know who have gone through either lap band, gastric sleeve have been so supportive already. so I am excited for this :) so ready for this :)