The In-Between

[theother_onefoot 122]

As though my body and mind are preparing for their very big changes and rollercoaster of emotions, I have found myself in the eye of the storm, so to speak.

When I first decided on WLS I went through my phase of sleepless nights and constant researching and reading. I scheduled my consultation with a surgeon. And now I am in a period of calm that is only frustrating when it isn't otherwise uneventful.

I had my consult, scheduled my date. I have my NUT appointment on the 18th, which I am sure will rejuvenate the excitement, but... I just really dislike this in-between time. I was supposed to be switching insurance by July 1 and from there would be able to set up the EGD and blood work, but here it is a week and whatever unforseen holdups later, and the switch hasn't gone through yet. And while I still have a month, I have this nagging worry that it won't change soon enough and the additional expenses (EGD, blood work, possible hiatal hernia) will be lumped on top of the cash price I am already paying. Then my surgeon also told me to try and lose some weight between our meeting and surgery, even before the two week liquid diet. Of course I told him I would try, and I've been eating better though I already ate fairly well before and I've even been replacing a meal or two or even a snack with a Protein Shake and still the scale sits at the exact same number as if mocking me. Which doubles my frustration, leading to thoughts towards my surgeon's request like, "If it were that easy for the weight to come off, I wouldn't be seeing you" or "Great, what if not being able to lose enough weight pre-surgery really messes things up and my liver is too big and he doesn't even perform the operation?" Perhaps I am just keeping myself busy enough not to feel the excitement right now, and the quiet of the storm's eye will pass and then I'll be thrown about with energy and anxiety and anticipation, and then I'll finally be on the other side...!

But right now? This in-between time sucks..

[jeanniereenie 177]

been there done that! i was doing way too much thinking about my surgery and then when it happened i was very "oh that was it?" no matter how much research i did i wasnt prepared for how i would feel emotionally or physically....its so different for everyone and you will adjust. you sound like you def have your head on straight!

congrats on making the decision

add me, I am in Texas as well

[onesleevedmamma 178]

Certainly understand! One thing I would like to add is that it is NORMAL and GOOD to have these worries and concerns. They are healthy because they motivate us to make the good decisions before surgery. Ultimately the worst thing that happens is the surgery is delayed a bit. And while that is emotionally hard, it is best so that you have the greatest chance at success without complications that you reaaaalllllllyyyy don't want.

Being prepared is key. You are on the right track. I wish I could send a magic wand to prepare everyone for the roller coaster they will encounter (some are small coasters and some more challenging) but like you said, before you know it you will be on the other side and headed to a healthy life!

Congrats on your decision! Keep us posted!!